Who are you?
I'm 21 years old. I'm going the fuck through it right now. I've been through a lot of experiences but I think the one I thought I'd probably write about the most is leaving Alcoholics Anonymous (which is a cult) after 3 years. The main story there is that I was transferred from an adolescent treatment center to an AA rehab on my 18th birthday. I am not and was not an alcoholic or addict, especially not according to AA's qualifications.
I was sexually assaulted in late May of this year, and it's had an impact on almost every aspect of my life. It's been a couple years since I was last assaulted, and I guess I forgot how much it throws everything off balance. I've got a lot of questions about God and the meaning of everything.
Writing is and has always been my outlet for all of the things I can never say out loud. My style changes and evolves throughout the course of every post, I tend to start with trepidation and transition into something less autobiographical and more prose-esque. I write really bad poetry sometimes, nothing posted on here yet but I'm sure it'll make it onto here at some point.
I'm also gender fluid. Kinda. I suppose I'll write another post about gender at some point. I use mainly he/him pronouns, but I dabble in she/her as well. I'm exploring my sexuality right now. I know I'm aromantic. I'm fairly sure that I'm asexual.(I just figured that out recently.)
I've been through quite a few traumas and I have a few mental illness diagnoses. I guess my official stance on those is that it doesn't really matter to me what the label is for it. I'm experiencing symptoms. A diagnosis is just a simple way to tell someone I experience a certain set of symptoms. The traumas I'm sure will be referenced in other posts.
I started working as a cook a couple months ago. It's the first back of house job I've had, but not my first restaurant job. I've been working in restaurants since I was 16. I love my job, and it means a lot to me that I'm able to do what I want to do. I didn't know it when I started but it really is my dream job, at least for right now.
(Last Updated 07-11-2025)