09-15-2025 life update
Since I did more of a poetic post today with no context, I figured I'd add some context in a separate post.
I moved out a few weeks ago, and was insanely happy about it until a few days ago when it hit me that this is what I had been working towards. It really does feel empty and dull to live in a safe place where no one is going to harm me. I don't feel like doing anything that gives my life any sort of meaning, and my hyperfixation on DC has ended so I'm really shit out of luck for dopamine. I've been watching video essays on disturbing shit just to feel something, even if that something is disgusted with humanity. I'm just generally feeling numb and empty and in need of excitement. I'm starting to understand why people do hard drugs because weed just makes me angry and alcohol just makes me sad. You know it's bad when I start considering a meth habit to spice things up.
Thanks always for reading and witnessing!
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Lin <3